Tuesday, July 22, 2014


I had my crazy moments once in a while in my life and one of them is overly addicted to Chatroulette.

Chatroulette is an chatting application online where you're connected to random strangers online using video chat. It's worldwide so most of the times, we'll connected to strangers from US, Aussie or any other parts of the world. Maybe I imagined someday I found my prince charming coming from USA? Hahahahahaha! I don't know. 

Among all of them, there are two of them whom I still remember up until today. Now don't get me wrong. It's not like that I fell in love with them or what. It's just that what they said that stuck with me. 

The first one is Scott. It was Valentine's Day and as usual, I felt a bit lonely and maybe desperately wants a date(booooo me!) so there I go, Chatroulette-ing until I got connected with Scott. Although most people would said that he's just like most guys on Chatroulette, I'd say Scott is different. I don't know why but until the moment when we had to stop chatting, he made my day. He made me smile at the end of the day. I had that moment with other people on Chatroulette, I know but with him, I'd always remember what he said and how he looks like. 

The second one, I don't even know his name. He didn't ask for my name so I didn't ask him his name too. All we did is talk about random stuff until he gave me a song title that he would like me to listen to. Dear Bobbie by Yellowcard. Right after he gave me the song title, we got disconnected. And right after that, I downloaded the song without listening to it first. And what happened? It is one of my personal favorite song until today. 

Sometimes, unexpected people will come into our lives and changed it. It's either from a good way or a bad way. People can change the way you dress up, the way you behave, or your taste of music. It's the little things that changed you gradually in times. Leaving and got left behind is not and never will be easy to do. But it's a part of our lifes and we just have to learn to accept it. If one day you got hurt so bad, try to get up again and you will see how strong you can become without the people that you thought you can't live without once upon a time. 

It doesn't matter how long that person stays in your life. What matters is the impact that they left behind. For me, that's the real reason why letting go is a very hard thing to do. We can forgive but can we really forget? All it takes is just one song, one place or one book and your memories will come back to your head.

Forgetting isn't an easy thing to do, especially when a person gave you so much to remember :)